Across the back of my grandmother's trailer in Texas was a wide screen
that kept a row of yellowing Reader's Digests from
sliding off the windowsill. On afternoons when it was too hot to go outside,
I read "Laughter, the Best Medicine" and "Humor in Uniform," but what kept
me up at night were "All in a Day's Work" and "Drama in Real Life." That adults
used stories to make it through a Day's Work, that Real Life was full of Drama,
made me yearn for my future. And for a day filled with Work, Life, and Drama,
medicine is hard to beat. But whence the stories?
Certainly, patients tell us stories; we demand them: What happened?
When? How? And then we tell these tales again and again. "This is a 55-year-old woman who presents with . . . " is our "Once upon a time . . . "—no less formulaic, and
no less infinite in its narrative potential. But our doctor stories, whether
we write them down or not, are not the same ones patients bring. They are
reaction, analysis, diagnosis, invention, strategy—what we do when faced
with a patient's narrative. That days are full of events is inevitable; that
they may be filled with stories depends on how we navigate.
Stories, and the narrative mode in general, constitute an outlook, a
strategic meaning-making. The difference between a string of events and the
tale taken home at the end of the day is that we deem this particular series
of events worthy of a second thought, a moment of reflection, worthy of the
telling—we allow to this day's work, the accumulation of meaning beyond
habit. The ability to take in someone's story, to track and contextualize
the meaning of a term—what does this patient mean when he says painful,
when she says dizzy, when he says weak—is only part of the job. We are
readers when we try to understand what has happened to our patients. We are
writers when we try to understand what has happened to our selves.
In this issue, Jonathan Auten shows us the way a single finding—"A
left pupil, fixed and dilated"—yields events of 50 years ago, while
Kimberly Mulcahy-Hawes' narrator tells us more than she realizes. Michael
McWilliams wonders if this is the end, while Michael Hope struggles with knowing
more of the story than his patient does. And, finally, when his patient can't
fill in the blanks, Boris Veysman tells himself a story.
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Reynolds TA. Once Upon a Time . . .. JAMA. 2003;289(5):612. doi:10.1001/jama.289.5.612-a