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Poetry and Medicine
April 9, 2008


Author Affiliations

Poetry and Medicine Section Editor: Charlene Breedlove, Associate Editor. Poems may be submitted to jamapoems@jama-archives.org.

JAMA. 2008;299(14):1646. doi:10.1001/jama.299.14.1646

I just noticed this morning
on death day one-five-three
your absence has solidified
i don't feel your presence
around the corner and in every room
or panic and cry
if i haven't thought about you in five minutes
although anywhere through the house
out loud
i still talk to you
more to hear half of our conversations
than to think you're here listening.
And even though occasionally tearful
still angry at the loss of our future
knowing full well there's more to travel with grief
resolved with
the could have
should have
would have
why did i
why didn't i
a whole list of what ifs
guilt of living and having fun
rage at the cancer
why you
how did i miss that
loneliness amidst friends and family
a new life without you
i think i can say
all in all
i’m at peace with your death.